I sat down slouched on my chair,
thinking about the next poem I wanted to write.
I thought about letting out my emotions, my worries, my doubts
But then…
I should be brighter.
After all, who knows who’s reading my poems? Continue reading “Something Pleasant”
I think I know why people are talking less about themselves.
I think I know why nobody wants to reveal themselves.
It’s because there is a ghost,
A ghost we cannot identify
A ghost that leaves funny traces…
Continue reading “I Know There’s a Ghost”
WHY
WHY
but you shouldn’t have, oh no you shouldn’t
and now my heart beats out of my chest
and im flipped upside down
and then im here again, but what am i–
why are you here?
So, it’s currently National Stuttering Awareness Week (NSAW), from May 7th to 13th. Maybe I’m just a bit late, but oh well… it’s not like you can only be aware of it for seven days. But yeah, this event happens annually on the second week of May ever since 1988, thanks to the NSA (National Stuttering Association).
Well here I am with a super long blog post to spread the word about stuttering and how it is a problem to at least 70 million people on earth. That might seem like a small fraction of the world, and you probably haven’t even heard of NSAW before. It’s fine because I just recently found out too…
But anyway, this post is for all those who struggle with stuttering, and for those who might need a reminder of how difficult it can be. Here’s a little warning: I’m about to become kind of vulnerable (but not too personal, don’t worry).
Essentially, stuttering isn’t just a little thing we shouldn’t be too concerned about. It’s not like accidentally tripping over cracks in the sidewalk, and neither is it like making mistakes in pen.
People who stutter can’t help but have choppy and uneven speech, and it’s often hard for them to get their own words out. No stutter is the same: they might repeat syllables, elongate their sounds, have blockages, or a whole combination of these. But this doesn’t mean they’re dumb or retarded, and it doesn’t just happen because they’re shy or nervous—they stutter even when they’re in a good mood and are perfectly fine.
And it’s a problem. It’s hard to communicate, and it’s hard to express ourselves. As a result, we get worried that other people would get impatient with us. We get anxious that they wouldn’t really understand what we try to say. It just makes us insecure and afraid to speak at all. It sucks to be the odd one out and to feel isolated, and so we’d wish we were fluent enough to not miss out on opportunities like new friendships.
But I know that everyone has a voice that needs to be heard, no matter how loud or quiet a person can be. I believe that everyone has a soul, no matter how cold and cruel that someone might seem. The thing is, we all have problems that make a huge impact on the way we live our lives and the way others perceive us.
Just to think:
That I’m going to keep
pushing you away
with all these storms
that trouble my mind—
But you’re going to keep
running back to me,
fighting against my wind…
“What part of your past are you trying to escape, Halliday?”
“From filmmaker Steven Spielberg comes the science fiction action adventure Ready Player One based on Ernest Cline’s bestseller of the same name, which has become a worldwide phenomenon. The film is set in 2045, with the world on the brink of chaos and collapse. But the people have found salvation in the OASIS, an expansive virtual reality universe created by the brilliant and eccentric James Halliday. When Halliday dies, he leaves his immense fortune to the first person to find a digital Easter egg he has hidden somewhere in the OASIS, sparking a contest that grips the entire world. When an unlikely young hero named Wade Watts decides to join the contest, he is hurled into a breakneck, reality-bending treasure hunt through a fantastical universe of mystery, discovery and danger.”
Rating: PG-13
Genre: Thriller/Sci-Fi/Fantasy
Director: Steven Spielberg
Release Date: March 29, 2018
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After staying up all night to finish Ernest Cline’s book, I watched the movie that same day. Well I actually got about two hours of sleep, but yeah it’s probably not a good idea. I should’ve started the book earlier too. However, I was super motivated to finish the awesome book, and I was excited to see the movie on the most convenient weekend I had (cause I’m a busy person).
I came to the theater knowing full and well that there’s going to be a bunch of changes to the book. I’ve read some articles and other spoiler-free reviews that told me I’d be disappointed if I’ve read the novel. And I knew that some things had to be replaced or removed because of rights and limited screen time. But in my seat, I was shook cause there were MORE CHANGES than I expected. It felt like half of the book changed.
So was I disappointed? Actually… I was smiling. Okay, maybe it’s partly because it’s an interesting movie to review, but I didn’t feel like walking out of the theater.
Although it’s not completely true to the book, I still think it’s a great movie. Steven Spielberg did an amazing job, and the special effects of the OASIS has a cool video game feel to it. There’s a lot of references to pop culture in the ‘80s (it’s almost LITERALLY PACKED in the book), and I loved seeing a whole ton of Easter eggs on the big screen. The movie’s full of action, adventure, and intense video gaming—including the actual Atari 2600 game called Adventure, which contains the very first video game Easter egg to be discovered in history.
This review will be spoiler-free. I’ll make a few comparisons with the book, but I won’t give away anything that might make you mad… At least, it wouldn’t make ME mad if I were to pretend I’m reading this for the first time…
GUYS. Let me tell you about this game I’ve been SUPER OBSESSED WITH.
First, please watch this awesome opening video that makes me want to dance every time:
(If you’re interested, here’s the English version, full Korean version with subtitles, and full English version with lyrics.)
Genre: Otome game, Romance
Developer: Cheritz
Initial Release Date: July 8, 2016
Platforms: Android, iOS
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Mystic Messenger is a South Korean interactive story game that you can play on your phone. And yes, it works just like a real messenger app: You can text, call, and participate in chatrooms to interact with the characters. Yep, it’s pretty cool that YOU get to talk with them—in real time. They even make a few typos every now and then.
Okay, you don’t actually type anything except for your username while signing up. But the game gives you some options to choose from that affect the direction of the story. Therefore, there are several different routes the story can take. Each one leads to various events and endings depending on what you say, but altogether there’s a huge, overall plot.
As you go through each route, all the different hints and clues add up to build suspense. And ultimately, it’ll lead you to discover just what makes this messenger so… mysterious.
SO… welcome to Part One of this Mystic Messenger Review! Honestly, I’m not sure if I should call it a review because I’m probably going to write more than 50 parts, which is a bit long haha. Look, this game turned out to be WAY more complex than I thought it would be!
However, I am excited to talk about my journey through this story. I cannot wait to go in order and talk about each of the routes I’ve done, including my thoughts, emotions, frustrations and discoveries.
Anyway, in this post I’m going to introduce this game to you: what it’s about, how it works, who the main characters are, etc.
Continue reading “Mystic Messenger Game Review Part 1: Intro | “WAIT, WHO ARE YOU TEXTING?””
“August (Auggie) Pullman was born with a facial difference…”
When I first read this from the blurb of the book, I was like, “Oh it’s about a boy with maybe just a huge birthmark on his face or something.” But I was wrong.
Ten-year-old Auggie knows he’s not an ordinary kid. He can sure do normal stuff like riding a bike and playing games, but the problem is that no one thinks he’s normal. Other kids run away at the sight of him, and people always do “that look-away thing.”
There is something weird about his face—something terrible enough to scare people away. At the beginning of the book he says, “I won’t describe what I look like. Whatever you’re thinking, it’s probably worse.”
And it is. The hints slowly drop to reveal the fact that his face is literally deformed. He was born with rare genetic abnormalities, and it’s so horrible that his parents had to keep him home-schooled because of all the surgeries he had.
But in this novel, his parents decide to take him to a real school for the first time to start fifth grade. They couldn’t keep him at home forever, and of course Auggie is terrified about it at first… But as the novel progresses, he learns a lot from this new school experience, and it makes such a huge, life-changing impact on him and even the others around him.
I’m gonna be honest here:
I’m not a good poet cause my pen is possessed, my mind is a mess
I don’t have a rhythm and I don’t like to rhyme if it hinders my thoughts
I have a storm that makes me go in circles and trip
and sometimes the wind picks me up so I know
how it’s like to drift
even when I’m strapped with a seat belt in a car going straight. Continue reading “mon stylo saignant”
So here’s something that came to me out of nowhere during my second year of high school. It’s pretty short, but I’ve never taken anything so strange so seriously. Well it’s not that strange, but I have a lot of questions about it. And I’m honestly still not sure how to answer them..
Down the hallway, Kath followed the man in a white lab coat. Their shoes made no sound on the cold grey floor, and soft white lights illuminated the walls.
Soon, the man stopped to look at the ceiling. Kath stepped to his side and glanced at him, wondering what he saw. Then the hallway vanished as she looked up.
Now a massive asteroid was in view up close, and it cast a large shadow upon them. Inch by inch, it drifted across their vision. They stepped back and saw how it stretched a hundred miles.
Kath didn’t question the possibility of standing and breathing in space. They just watched as the asteroid approached the planet on the right — a small, rocky planet with rugged brown land and pale blue waters, with some murky yellow clouds in the dry air.
Time seemed to accelerate as the asteroid drifted closer and closer, as if the planet wanted impact. Then it collided with a flash. A thick cloud of dust swept over the planet, which crumbled and shook. The air caught on fire, and chunks of rock fell.
Kath blinked once. Twice. And soon the flames died off.
She looked away into the expanse of stars, which seemed to be trying to tell her something. But she felt deaf in this endless vacuum of space… numb, cold and quiet.
Then she turned to the stranger beside her and saw a tear running down his cheek. In his eyes, she noticed the wavering reflection of stardust, but he didn’t say anything.
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